(ahh diddums.)

ahh_diddums @ 2004-02-11T19:46:00

2004-02-12T03:47:00Z

new journal = knikcalbderaems.

add me.

theyve taken control.

2004-02-03T23:55:05Z

i seem to be getting into a lot of fights lately.
its just the three of us. no fuckwittage.

you just dont even know.

konsumer produkt.

2004-02-01T08:51:28Z

im so excited about coachella. you dont even know. kim smells. youdontevenknowyoudontevenknowyoudontevenknowyoudontevenknowyoudontevenknow. please keep movingawayfromme,kim. tickets go on sale on valentines day at noon. if anyone needs a place to stay during those two days i might be able to help a brotha out. depends on how much i like you.

my camera is in c-moneys car. every month there are going to be good shows. mars volta. blood brothers. modest mouse. not to mention coachellaagain. LETTERKILLS is at my school. i never thought id see him again. hes so pleasing to the eyes not to mention...he hangs out with my cute john.
mikey pierced his lip. its cute. i hope his parents dont go berzerker. i hate school. the perfect score was stupid. but it was something.

ive been scared out of a good time. i hate you. i hate the effect of you inslashout of my life. i saw you today. but it wasnt you. it was someone just like you. and i was scared.

and it hurts so much to know that they have so much pain in their lives and they are so much alike and i could never make it go away for either of them. i wasnt good enough. not for one second.

for my homegirl marco. bring me back a plate.

please keep moving.

2004-01-29T05:28:59Z

we are all so worried about you. can you live with a broken heart? a broken spirit? a broken mind?

my mom painted my nails. i wish i could acquire the elegance and grace. my body is giving out on me. no lie.

better keep moving. </3

a mint is a place where coins are made.

2004-01-27T05:49:31Z

one day. one day she will find me in the bath tub. her fears will come true.
broken hearts will come out of her eyes.

c-money is here to stay. if you aint sucka free dont fuck with me. the best days are yet to come. school is such a waste of my time. i do less than i did before. thats practically nothing.

its so hard for me being without you for even small increments of time. you just dont even know. 48 more hours to go.

youd never know that i cry every night all because of you.

burn piano island burn

2004-01-22T03:17:37Z

i dont have any motivation to do anything so i just sleep.

so its opposite land.
its hot hot hot and theres 100% chance of passion.

ahh_diddums @ 2004-01-19T21:15:00

2004-01-20T05:50:07Z

[ 100 random things about me ]

1. Are you an innie or an outie? innie.

2. Have you ever worn bell-bottoms? maybe.

3. Have you ever written a song? dont think so.

4. Can you make change for a dollar right now? yeah.

5. Have you ever been in the opposite sex's public toilet? in the restroom. yes.

6. Have you ever smelled your own feet? maybe.

7. Do you like ketchup on or beside your french fries? beside.

8. Can you touch your tongue to your nose? nope.

9. Have you ever been a boy/girl scout? yeah.

10. Have you ever broken a mirror? yeah.

11. Have you ever put your tongue on a frozen pole? no.

12. What is your biggest pet peeve? i dont know my biggest. but i have a lot.

13. Do you slurp your drink after it's gone? probably at least once.

14. Have you ever blown bubbles in your milk? i dont drink milk.

15. Would you rather eat a big mac or a whopper? neither.

16. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping? yes.

17. When you are at the grocery store, do you ask for paper or plastic? i dont ask.

18. True or false: you would rather eat steak than pizza. depends what kind of pizza.

19. Did you have a baby blanket? i dont think i had a designated one.

20. Have you ever tried to cut your own hair? yeah.

21. Have you ever sleepwalked? i used to all the time.

22. Have you ever had a birthday party at mcdonalds? no.

23. Can you flip your eye-lids up? no.

24. Are you double jointed? yeah.

25. If you could be any age, what age would you be? 18.

26. Have you ever gotten gum stuck in your hair? yep.

27. Have you ever thrown-up after a roller coaster ride? no.

28. What is your dream car? tims ford escort.

29. What is your favorite cartoon of all time? i dont really know.

30. Would you go swimming in shallow waters where, one year earlier, a shark had attacked a child? yeah.

32. Have you ever eaten a dog biscuit? probably.

33. If you were in a car sinking in a lake, what would you do first? get out.

34. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? no.

35. Can you pick something up with your toes? yeah.

36. How many remote controls do you have in your house? probably like 10.

37.Have you ever fallen asleep in school? yeah.

38. How many times have you flown in an airplane in the last year? i dont remember.

39. How many foreign countries have you visited? 4.

40. If you were out of shape, would you compete in a triathlon if you were somehow guaranteed to win a big, gaudy medal? no. thats exercise. we dont do that.

41. Would you rather be rich and unhappy, or poor and happy? rich and unhappy because i could end up being happy and still have money.

42. If you fell into quicksand, would you try to swim or try to float? id just die.

44. Do you ask for directions when you are lost? no.

45. Have you ever had a mexican jumping bean? yeah. theyre cool.

46. Are you more like cinderella or alice in wonderland? alice maybe.

47. Would you rather have an ant farm with no ants or a box of crayons with broken points? box of crayons with broken points.

48. Do you prefer light or dark bread? light.

49. Do you prefer scrambled or fried eggs? scrambled.

50. Have you ever been in a car that ran out of gas? probably.

51. Do you talk in your sleep? maybe a few times.

52. Would you rather shovel snow or mow the lawn? mow the lawn.

53. Would you rather be bitten by a poisonous snake or constricted by a python? bitten.

54. Have you ever played in the rain? yeah.

55. Which do you think is more dangerous: an angry bear or a hungry white shark? hungry white shark.

56. Would you climb a very high tree to save a kitten? no. once again...exercise.

57. Can you tell the difference between a crocodile and an alligator? yeah.

58. Do you drink pepsi or coke? peksi.

59. Whats your favorite number? 6.

60. If you were a car, would you be an suv or a sports car? sports.

61. Have you ever accidentally taken something from a hotel? no. ive done it purposely.

62. Would you blow your nose at the dinner table? no.

63. Have you ever slipped in the bathtub? yeah.

64. Do you use regular or deodorant soap? que que?

65. Have you ever locked yourself out of the house? no.

66. Would you rather make your living as a singing cowboy or as one of the simpsons voices? simpsons voices.

67. If you could invite any movie star to your home for dinner, who would it be? um. i dont know.

68. Have you ever gotten a truck driver to honk his horn? yeah.

69. Which would you rather live with: a huge nose or crossed eyes? crossed eyes.

70. Would you hang out with someone your best friend didn't like? i do.

71. Would you hang out with someone your best friend liked, but you didn't like? probably.

72. Have you ever returned a gift? yeah.

73. Would you give someone else a gift that had been given to you? yeah.

74. If you could attend an olympic event, what would it be? Soccer or men's gymnastics? soccer.

75. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 4 maybe.

76. If your grandmother gave you a gift that you already have, would you tell her? yeah.

77. Do you sing in the car? yeah.

78. Would you rather jump into a dumpster or into a vat of honey? dumpster.

79. What is your favorite breed of dog? pug.

80. Would you donate money to feed starving animals in the winter? no. they are asleep.

81. If you were a bicycle, would you be a stingray or a mountain bike? id be a schwinn.

82. What is your least favourite fruit? i dont like fruit.

83. What kind of fruit have you never had? mango.

84. If you won a $5,000 shopping spree to any store, which store would you pick? louis vuitton.

85. What brand sports apparel do you wear the most? i dont think i wear sports apparel.

86. Are/were you a good student? no but i get good grades.

87. Among your friends, who could you arm wrestle and beat? no one.

88. If you had to choose, what branch of the military would you be in? stormtrooper.

89. Would you ever parachute out of a plane? yeah.

90. What do you think is your best feature? false sense of hope.

91. If you were to win a grammy, what kind of music would it be for? none.

92. What is your favorite season? autumn.

93. How many members do you have in your immediate family? 4.

94. Which of the five senses is most important to you? sight.

95. Would you be a more successful painter or singer? either. you dont have to be good to be successful anymore.

97. How many years will/did you end up going to college? who knows.

98. Have you ever had surgery? yeah.

99. Would you rather be a professional figure skater or professional football player? figure skater. it used to be a hobby.

100. What do you like to collect? niggers in my trunk. [old school.]

im feeling this.

2004-01-20T02:35:34Z

i am the epitomy of the atkins diet. my mom thinks im a hardxcore druggie. if im one then shes clean. [hah.] im moving if i dont get a transfer. no lie. im done with this place.

monday | cortnaah. wes. alex.
-went to ikea and innout and best buy and inner visions. alex is an okay driver. bleh.

sunday | cortnaah. wes. elisa. tiffany. scotty.
-went to the swap meet. got new tunnels. they are awesome. dropped elisa off at some conference thingie. went to horton plaza. went to amc palm. saw along came polly. went to scottys. met tiffany. fucked up cars. ditched wes for 10 minutes. tried to pick up little boys. HIT AND RUN. went to the woods pool. chilled at home with the krew.

saturday | cortnaah. wes. drake. dane.
-chilled with my little bro and the homies. hung around. fucked with iles fish. picked up dane. stole my flamingo back. made beer biscuits. sat around.

friday | cortnaah. wes. jay. elisa.
-went to elisas house and did nothing. went to the woods pool and swam. that pool is the fucking shit. its so pimp.

im drowning.

2004-01-10T17:46:19Z

its all my fault. i did it to you. thats what really hurts.

darling stop confusing me with your wishful thinking. hopeful embraces. dont you understand? i have to go through this. i belong to here where no one cares and no one loves. no light. no air to live in. a place called hate. the city of fear.

i play dead. it stops the hurting. i play dead and hurting stops. its sometimes just like sleeping. curling up inside my private tortures. i nestle into pain. hug suffering. caress every ache. i play dead. it stops the hurting.

to be honest. i really dont care.

sometimes we wish we knew.

2004-01-09T20:53:56Z

so ive been thinking a lot lately...

and i guess i realised what i want to do with my life.
and i guess i realised what i want out of life.

if i ever said i hated someone. i lied. i dont think i could hate anyone. i just avoid them because im afraid they hate me.

and i guess i realised that this year cannot compare with last year. but it can try.
and i guess i realised who my friends are.

you ask me about my past and though i appear to be staring blankly i am really remembering all the lonely nights and then all the fantastic nights of being together. and all the parties. and all the loving moments. and all the pain. all the inside jokes. everything i could have sworn i had forgotten. forgetting. forgot. gone.

i have pneumonia.

so this is the new year...

2004-01-03T08:07:30Z

i cant believe bitches are talking shit. thats hilairious.

elisa and janos cousins are really cute. the last part of tonight was good. its the ideal. and im glad that people love me. i hope that sal and company succeeded in their events tonight.

i feel the social glare. i feel the attitude.

anarchyxcore props.

2004-01-01T06:09:25Z

i think i have two friends. total. everything is upside down.
-"whats going on reed!?"
-*kailah face*

i might have turned into a recluse.

Using band names, spell out your name
K raftwork
A BBA
I NXS
L ondon After Midnight
A phex Twin
H atebreed!

Have you ever had a song written about you? no.
What song makes you cry? i dont know.
What song makes you happy? "i just died in your arms 'tonight'... it must have been something you said!"
What do you like to listen to before bed? um. whatever.

a p p e a r a n c e

HEIGHT: 5' 3"
HAIR COLOR: brown/black.
SKIN COLOR: whitey.
EYE COLOR:brown.
PIERCINGS: 10 in my ears.
TATTOOS: none.

r i g h t n o w

WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: black booty shorts. heh.
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: father of mine by everclear.
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: chocolate.
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: cold.
HOW ARE YOU?: peachy fucking keen.

d o y o u

GET MOTION SICKNESS?: no.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: fer shurr.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: sometimes.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: not my moms car.

f a v o r i t e s

TV SHOW: e.r.
CONDITIONER: bleh.
BOOK: whichever one i read last.
MAGAZINE: douche! hamburger eyes. adbusters. art prostitute. ready-made.
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: dp.
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: baileys.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: anything.
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: whichever.

h a v e y o u

BROKEN THE LAW: yeah.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yeah.
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yeah.
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: maybe.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yeah. heh. heh.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: almost.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: and my g-mas.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: shee-it. always.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yeah.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: a few.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeah.

l o v e

BOYFRIEND: nah.
GIRLFRIEND: nah.
SEXUALITY: bi.
CHILDREN: forget that.
CURRENT CRUSH: charlie.
BEEN IN LOVE?: yeah.
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: oh emm gee.
BEEN HURT?: sure.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: wasting time.
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: most likely. slut pride.
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: yeeeeeah.
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: my ky rap mix.
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: periwinkle because thats livs favourite.
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: bitches and hoes.
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: charlie.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: fuck if i know.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: fuck the bitches and fuck the hoes. [big boys too.] and watch teen 90s movies.

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t

TIME YOU CRIED?: i dont remember.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: july.
YOU GOT E-MAIL: today.
THING YOU PURCHASED: food.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: e.r.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: lord of the rings.

y o u r t h o u g h t s o n

ABORTION: fuck yeah.
TEENAGE SMOKING: whatever.
SPICE GIRLS: slut pride!
DREAMS: i killed the teen dream!

twenty inch blades on an impala.

2003-12-20T19:45:45Z

and all this drinkin will catch up.
and all this smokin will cath up.
some niggas just really dont give a fuck.

tuesday. went to music trader and picked up the radiohead sticker from alfredito finally. waited in a mad crazy line for lord of the rings. but me and dane stayed in the car to bump the zak and to be warm. poor eric and sal stayed in line.
wednesday. went to the 1201am showing of lord of the rings with dane and eric and sal. went to dennys. went to some mexican place in bonita. went to school. fell asleep during my ap final. hung out with andy and sal.
thursday. gave sean and brad cookies and a pepsi. went to scottys house. watched surf ninjas! via picked me up and we were supposed to go paint stuff and then her car was overheating so we went to the gas station and let it cool down. we hung out with tommy for a bit. then we went to my house and it died on my street and left a stain. it was towed to the gas station we went to earlier. then via got picked up by homies and i got picked up by mormons. me and dane and the mormons went to coronado and ate at wendys.
friday. i stayed home all day. dane came over around 5ish. we made an awesome rap mix.

im gonna take his manhood and his music. ey. wheres the ky?

bella stanza

2003-12-16T07:10:00Z

[seen at a glance] i could really use some boobs in the face.
[seen at a glance] because you know, that's all you're good for.
[utterly hetero] true that.

bitch got told today during ap euro. i was like the smartest kid ever for like 10 seconds. best watch your step. i kind of expected finals to be hard. but then i realised that school is a joke. my computer is being a bitchwhore because i have too many pictures on it but it wont let me delete any. gwar! me and silvia have found jesus. in a truck and in a manger.

ive been waiting since ~~birth~~ to find a love that would look and sound like a movie.

the errors of the edge.

2003-12-13T23:43:09Z

thought i should update. dont know what to write. cant really remember a lot. lots of hanging out with dane and via. i hope i get to go to rilo kiley. i hope holidays dont suck.

as long as you can. if we dont reunite in time...will try again.

i wish some people were still my friends.

no pictures and no sex.

2003-12-07T07:15:02Z

saturday school was fun. who knew...
slyvia and carina and getting lost and tower records and hillcrest and seaport village and innout and serial killers were fun. and the last samurai was pretty good. long. but good.

dane is dead.

im so tired. i havent gotten anything done. except study for my ap euro test. agony and woe.

yall cant deny it. im a fucking riot.

2003-12-05T06:00:32Z

I just witnessed the gayest thing ever. Eastlake vs. Hilltop wrestling match. Fuckin' a. I could die happy. There are no words to describe. IT WAS OFF THE CHAIN.

I have a grip of homework to do. Best step on it for semester grades.

we dont suck dick. yall dont wanna fuck with me.

and you will know us by...

2003-12-04T06:42:49Z

did you just die in his arms tonight? was it something he said?

so dane and silvia surprised me today at school and we went away to music trader. i missed alfredito. it was nice. it was sweet. i just find it touching when people pick me up from school.

i just want it to be april again. the quality of living has decreased. everything is catching. this is the worst year so far.

thank you for giving me all of my memories. i think about them every day.

hatehatehate

2003-12-01T05:55:15Z

my family is crazy. thanksgiving was decent aside from the fact that i was without my sex&chocolate for a long time. im so tired. i think da boiz got me sick.

1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCH!"? maybe once.
2. You watched the Pound Puppies? i dont think so.
3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air."? you know how we do.
4. You wore biker shorts under your skirts and felt stylish? nononononononoho!
5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-Sitters Club and tried to start a club of your own? i had almost all the books. but no. no club for me.
6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented dolls? no.
7. You know that "WOAH" comes from Joey on Blossom? no.
8. Two words: M.C. Hammer? now hes got style.
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock."? no.
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars? i had the fucking coolest barbie corvette. fuck bikes.
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales."? true true.
12. You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons? nope.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head? my hair was wayyyy too short for that.
14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen? nope.
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school? fuck yeah!!!! i totally bought the game so i could play it at home all the time. i think i still have it.
16. You made your Mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side? pfffft. hair ties all the way. old skool.
17. You played the game "MASH" (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter Shack, House)? only the cooelst game around. im marrying austin brown and having 1 kid and living in a mansion with a ford escort.
18. You wore a Jordache Jean jacket and you were proud of it? huh?
19. L.A. Gear...? eh?
20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten? jem?
21. You remember reading Tales of a Fourth Grade Nothing and all the Ramona books? nope.
22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF."? naw.
23. You wanted to be a Goonie? never saw it. wrote about it in MR PIES CLASS! represent.
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing? dont think so.
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off? no way.
26. You have pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf? i had the plasic figures.
27. You took lunch pails to school? brown bagged it baby.
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets? they got banned? i gave one to amanda like last year.
29. You still get the urge to say "NOT" after every sentence? no.
30. You remember Hypercolor T-shirts? no.
31. Barbie and the Rockers was your favorite band? who?
32. You thought She-Ra and He-Man should hook up? no idea.
33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged friendship bracelets? we so never did that.
34. You ever owned a pair of jelly shoes? only one.
35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I? no.
36. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up!"? no.
37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates? i think we had inline skates back then. but i remember ice skating.
38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip'n'Slide? never played.
39. You have ever played with a Skip-It? i was the shit at that.
40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonald's? what?! chuckie cheese!!
41. You've gone through this list occasionally saying "totally awesome."? no.
42. You remember Popples? no.
43. "Don't worry, be happy."? no.
44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks? never.
45. You wore socks scrunched down? maybe.
46. "Miss MARY MACK MACK MACK, all dressed in BLACK BLACK BLACK"? yesyesyesyes!
47. You remember boom boxes vs. CD players? theres a difference?
48. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies? no.
49. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!"? no.
50. You remember watching Rainbow Brite and My Little Ponies? my aunt had my little ponies.
51. You thought Doogie Howser was hot? no.
52. You remember Alf, the lil furry brown alien from Melmac? no.
53. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool? they were cool?
54. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell," the ORIGINAL class? RERUNS!
55. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - YOU GIVE LOVE A BAD NAME? no.

i wish we had acted like every time we saw eachother would be our last.

define your soul

2003-11-23T06:52:16Z

ive decided that tequilla is the worst tasting thing in the world.
and that i completely zone out way too much.
and that im an asshole.
and the secret garden is the best movie.
and my mom hid my pyjamas and i have to wear booty shorts and a tank top instead.
and elisa makes the best chai ever.
and that i want someone to text me.
and that i dont know what i want.
and that marcus was the coolest cat ever in the play.
and that it was great seeing my fag ex boyfriend again.
and i dont want to leave my house.
and that i wish my scars wouldnt fade because i love them and everything they remind me of.

mmm.

2003-11-20T06:41:01Z

so im watching the victoria secret fashion show. oh...my...god...fucking sex on legs man! except most of the blonde chicks. i dont dig. its all about ADRIANA LIMA! nekkidpiccysohmigodohmigodohmigodohmigod. orgasm.

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2003-11-18T05:39:21Z

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secrets of a hip-hop sneaker pimp

2003-11-17T06:31:54Z

i did nothing until 445. hung out with prince&melissa {my aZnz}. went to see dane. went to in-n-out. no doggy style fries for me thank you. went to elisas. went to death cab. it was fucking sold out and we didnt get in. gwar!

as i layed and died
the things i think
i dont want to regret what i did
did i waste my time?
i think i did

i dont need to take this kind of shit from any of you people. fuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyou

fuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyou

fuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyoufuckyou. cubed.

you can follow logic or contest it all.

Don't ever say I'm better.

2003-11-15T08:55:08Z

we are not perfect but we sure try.

So today Dane and I went on an adventure. At around 1700 hours we got on the trolley and went to Downtown. We took a bus to Hillcrest. We busted a mad poster snagging and a burma shave. Met up with Mike&Scotty + Sax at Off The Record. Got home at 2400 hours. The end.

backwashed& stranded memories of something i thought could be.

~~postscript - cant wait until saturday for thegirlfriend and sunday for death cab for cutie+melissa.~~

A little bit of knowledge will destroy you.

2003-11-13T07:03:40Z

I'm not living, I'm just killing time.

When sorry is not good enough

i resent you calling
i resent your voice
i resent that i don't have a choice

anywhere i go
you are always there

Everyone I talk to, it's all the same. I've done nothing for far too long. I need to meet new people. I've been kissing memories in my dreams. And it makes me so sad. Bri died. I don't think I can go to her memorial service, too painful. Her funeral is being held in Italy. I've learned to appreciate what I have and what I've had. Sarah E. Fuller has a community. Can we end this mind fuck, please?

And true love waits
In haunted attics
And true love ~~lives~~